Trusting God
It's really not good to be left alone with my thoughts all day. I have had more time alone in my thoughts during this pandemic than ever before, or so it feels. I have come to realize (again--this is a recurring lesson) that my thoughts and feelings are not God. Alone in my thoughts, I start thinking the worst about others, about myself, about God. I start wondering if God is even listening. I wonder if I have been doing what I am supposed to be doing. I start over-analyzing. It's a vicious cycle. I like knowing what's coming and why things happen as they do. I have been alive long enough and a Christian long enough to know we don't often know why things happen the way they do. We know ultimately that God works all things for our good and His glory, but it's hard to see that sometimes in the moment. It is hard to simply trust in God's loving care. There are a lot of voices fighting for our attention. Information overload is a common occurrence. It...